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“…As for the question of whether humans are predestined to enter Paradise or Hell, we must remember that Allah transcends the limits of time. He is All-Knowing of the past, present and future. Thus He knows in advance which path — good or evil — each individual will choose and what will be his or her final destination — Paradise or Hell. But such knowledge does not mean that He makes each person choose a certain path.“
Isn’t this a contradiction? How does He not make each person choose a certain path? After all, everything is pre-destined and everything is within Allah’s will (which I deeply believe in), for when He created everyone and everything He determined when each would come into this life, the qualities, wealth and nature of each and when each would depart. Also, everything in the universe - whether we’re able to see it or not - is completely subject to the overriding power of Allah…ultimately, nothing what-so-ever can happen outside His will!
I agree with the fact that we cannot know our future and, to a large extent, we cannot control it…and I also agree that we can make decisions within the limits of what we can control, based on our understanding of the way the world works…so I don’t sit idle and expect things to come to me…I have to actually work towards what it is I want to achieve, perhaps exhaust all possibilites to make it happen..but ultimately, if Allah doesn’t want it to happen, then it will not no matter how hard I try. So basically, my free will isn’t so free, for there is a greater will that controls it - and that is Allah’s will.
And even if sincere prayers do change the course of how things unfold in our lives, that too is pre-determined. I mean, how do I guarantee that my prayers are sincere? I’ve sincerely prayed for many things, and almost none of which have been answered. Maybe my understanding of sincere isn’t clear? Or perhaps none of which actually happening is Allah’s way of answering my prayers… Who knows best but Allah!
And believing (?) such makes my experiences, past and days in general a lot more bearable! But that still doesn’t change the fact that I’m confused…confused about my existence, my purpose, events unfolding or lack of…about my life in general..
(I was starting to talk about this with a friend, but I had to go and when I called back SEVERAL times, he chose not to answer…I was going to leave it in a voicemail …but I bet I was destined to write it instead!)