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bahir ko wisdom

Under: Memories, Uncategorized, What I Love @ 10:47 pm on Wednesday, 06.17.09

A: i hate fb status updates … i think for personal use it is the most pathetic creation
B: is the stupid creation updates or fb?
A: status updates
B: oh yeah … that’s why i don’t get how twitter is so successful. i hate twitter. i got one… but i actually didn’t get it at first and then when i understood what it was about i got pissed off.
A: I saw her majesty’s twitter page
B: her majesty? do you actually use that phrase?????
A: HAHAHAHAH
B: it’s the most self-degrading phrase on the planet. please don’t use it…call her queenie
A: why? it’s her title. or an extension of it, I should say. Like, if I actually studied law and became a judge you would call me “Your honor.”
B: i hate the concept of monarchy unless i become one…otherwise i’m for democracy …
ugh i’m getting chest pain …i can’t get into this debate …let me listen to whitney

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A: do you like pablo neruda?
B: i don’t know who he is
A: And it was at that age…poetry showed up, and it was looking for me. I do not know, i do not know where it came from, if it came from winter or the river.

here & there

Under: Memories, Random Thoughts, Uncategorized @ 12:10 am on Tuesday, 03.24.09

C R A V I N G S You know that feeling of wanting to passionately taste something despite knowing that you cannot fully have it? You know that you cannot have it and that it will never be yours, but you feel this sensation of wanting to just have a quick taste of it? Even if it’s just a sample..a trial version of ‘it’ to sort of fulfill that craving of wanting it? Well, I don’t know why…but I kinda like this feeling… (I wrote this here last Feb and I still kinda like this feeling, along with the feeling of peeing after holding it in for some busy 7+ hours… reminds me of what I once described the feeling of being at the gun range after a friend asked how liberating it felt: actually, never mind. maybe later.)

Hilarious, no? She was emailing some guy in Spain today named Jesus. “I was like Good day Jesus…hahahahahahaha” I also let a big laugh out … that was hilarious, I thought… ” I was about to say send my regards to God. It was weird. seriously. He should consider renaming himself to something else. someone a little low profile, like Noah” hahaha :D

What did I mean? I would do the impossible to figure out what I meant by CTOAT when I chose it as a title. seriously, I know it meant something at the time… an acronym … cannot remember…and I think I want to remember. Rihab, if you’re reading this and you remember, then let me know.

Being me. me: beesan, your kids have to stop reading my site…I feel like I cannot be myself anymore. Beesan: yourself doesn’t have to be graphic as usual
Rihab: why can’t you be yourself? let them get to know their wacky aunt

Shallow Obsessions shoes, perfume, my eyebrows, avocados, seafood

By the way, I am starting to get sick of the fake message behind the ‘art.’ bekkaffi ya! (means enough, eh!)

i live

Under: Memories, Palestine, Uncategorized, What I Love @ 11:53 am on Tuesday, 03.10.09

In the Taxi stopped at a check point is when I first heard this song …inhaling smoke …each word sketches an image of its own …I live. off a memory between us some years ago.

my love, come back …I’m calling you

(translation sounds sappy!)

I’m coming back, Palestine!:d

bitgheeb. winta elli 3ala bali…

Seriously, that’s exactly why I’m coming back sooner than I thought :)

waiting to pass that same check point this summer, too. will I live the day when that very same check point no longer exits? a depressed hopeful thought…

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Letters I never sent

18

all of which untitled.

By the way, I had a great weekend. thought provoking conversations. silly laughs. interesting people. silly talks. tamer hosny’s ba3ish (i have a story with this song. i love it. it reminds me of Palestine), milk, WTF moments, coffee, food, Whatever moments, poetry, music, let’s get it over with moments,

How could she?!

Under: Memories, Uncategorized, hahaha @ 11:47 am on Friday, 02.20.09

Layla (with a smile): Iman, how do you spell arithmetic
Me (puzzled): A R I …hold on, I need to write it down first. I start writing in the air as I didn’t have a pen handy … T ..ugh this is tough …I’ll just use my phone to type it out.
Layla: Are you going to spell check?
Me: Why would I do that… Okay, it’s A R I T H M E T I C . Why do you ask?
Layla: Well, the other day, Mona came to me and asked how that word is spelled. She had a spelling test and wanted to make sure it’s spelled right. I was in a hurry leaving to work … I spelled it A R I T H M A T I C …
My jaw drops in shock at my sister-in-law’s carelessness… How could you!? and of course she got it wrong?! Me said :D
Layla: ssshhh…Yes! I told you, I was in such a hurry …
Me: I know you teach Biology and Micro-biology but do your students know that you don’t know how to spell?!
Layla: I feel so bad! It was the only wrong she got! She came home crying…saying “how could you not know how to spell? it’s the only word I got wrong on the test. How could you???”
Me: Hahahha… you are such a bad mom, Layla!!

Really, this is hilarious in some ways and not so hilarious in so many other ways…but I find the whole things amusing.

Mona walks by … I say out loud as I look in her direction: Oh someONE doesn’t know how to spell?!
Mona: Are you talking about me, amto?
Me: No, I’m talking about your mom!


Mona smiles and starts asking me to spell words I have never heard of before…


Yes Mona, to speak to your number 1 sentence…so busy that she taught you wrong spelling :D

(Mona is my niece ; Layla is my brother’s wife)

Palestine’s Night Sky

Under: Memories, Palestine, Uncategorized, What I Love @ 9:27 pm on Tuesday, 02.3.09

Missing those nights on my parents’ back veranda…

P.S. I don’t understand why many Arab young men find it ‘disrespectful’ to smoke in front of their parents. Seriously. Especially if your parents are smokers themselves. My father lights one for me. My mother, on the other hand, just recently gave up chasing me around the house when ever I light one.

Ahmad Al-Arabi Premier: In Pictures

Under: Around The World, Art & Culture, Memories, Palestine, Poetry, Uncategorized, What I Love @ 1:46 pm on Thursday, 01.22.09

Here in pictures of night one (Jan 21, 2009) of two (Jan 22, 2009), Marcel Khalife’s (who studied in Lebanon - at Beirut National Conservatory of Music and not in Russia) world Premier of his operatic work Ahmad Al-Arabi from Mahmoud Darwish’s epic poem, Ahmad Al-Zaatar, in which Darwish documents, in 1977 (and not during the first invasion of Lebanon by the Zionists), the 1976 siege and massacre at Tal Al-Zaatar…

Lebanese composer and singer Marcel Khalife performs during “Ahmed Al-Arabi Concert” in Damascus January 21,2009 in solidarity with the Palestinians in Gaza. The proceeds from the concert will go to aid Palestinian victims of the Israeli offensive in Gaza. Picture taken January 21, 2009. Picture taken January 21, 2009. REUTERS/Jamal Saidi(SYRIA)
Lebanese composer and singer Marcel Khalife performs  during "Ahmed Al-Arabi Concert" in Damascus January 21,2009 in solidarity with the Palestinians in Gaza. The proceeds from the concert will go to aid Palestinian victims of the Israeli offensive in Gaza. Picture taken January 21, 2009. REUTERS/Jamal Saidi(SYRIA)

Lebanese composer and singer Marcel Khalife (C) performs with singer Omaima al-Khalil as conductor Mesak Baghbodian (back to camera) leads the Syrian National Symphony Orchestra during “Ahmed Al-Arabi Concert” in Damascus January 21, 2009 in solidarity with the Palestinians in Gaza. The proceeds from the concert will go to aid Palestinian victims of the Israeli offensive in Gaza. Picture taken January 21, 2009. REUTERS/Jamal Saidi(SYRIA)

Lebanese composer and singer Marcel Khalife (2nd L) performs with singer Omaima al-Khalil (R) as conductor Mesak Baghbodian leads the Syrian National Symphony Orchestra during “Ahmed Al-Arabi Concert” in Damascus January 21, 2009 in solidarity with the Palestinians in Gaza. The proceeds from the concert will go to aid Palestinian victims of the Israeli offensive on Gaza. Picture taken January 21, 2009. From Reuters Pictures.

Listen to samples of Ahmad Al-Arabi here and purchase here.

And thank me here

Worldwide reading in memory of Darwish

Under: Around The World, Art & Culture, Memories, Palestine, Poetry, What I Love @ 1:53 pm on Friday, 09.19.08

Worldwide reading in memory of Mahmoud Darwish on 5 October 2008


The Berlin International Literature Festival is appealing for a worldwide reading of Mahmoud Darwish’s poetry on 5 October 2008. This appeal is directed at cultural institutions, radio stations, schools, universities, theatres and all other Darwish enthusiasts all over.

Readings on 5 October will be held in:
Australia | Austria | Bangladesh | Canada | Egypt | France | Germany | India | Italy | Kenya | Macedonia | Morocco | Norway | Palestine | Russia | South Africa | Spain | Sudan | Switzerland | USA | Zimbabwe [More]

Where is Jordan? Lebanon? Syria?

You can have a reading of your own, too.

Which reminds me…

Under: Memories, Ugh!, Uncategorized, hahaha @ 1:31 pm on Friday, 08.29.08

In the West Bank city of Nablus, civil servant Mohammed Daraghmeh said he had MBC blocked at home so his kids couldn’t watch, but the family vowed to watch it at an uncle’s house and he backed down.

I laughed out loud reading this just now … It reminded me of that one evening when I was visiting my parents back home this summer … We had guests over (thats always so much fun, I tell you! Especially guests who over stay their welcome.) and I guess it was time for Noor to come on, but they wouldn’t have been able to make it back to their homes in time so they asked if we can turn to MBC.

My father said we don’t have MBC, that he discontinued this channel. All puzzled, I looked at him and said: No, we have it. I had it turned on earlier in the day. He looked at me and said: No Iman, we don’t have it. I discontinued it the other day. Still not realizing why he was saying that, I said: No, really we have it…here, if you give me the remote, I’ll show you…and so I got up to grab the remote from him…that’s when he gave me his infamous look that has this utterly unique ability to make me pee in my pants. That’s when I understood that he simply did not want to turn to MBC because he does not want to have to sit their and endure watching stupid Noor! But his reasons have nothing to do with not wanting kids watching it!

In Eleven Planets

Under: Art & Culture, Memories, Palestine, Uncategorized, What I Love @ 2:50 pm on Wednesday, 08.20.08

In this collection I had to defend a forgotten history; or to put it more clearly, I’d say I had to defend the land of the past and the past of the land, the land of language and the language of the land. I believe that the unwavering commitment to resistance and defense is not some sort of nostalgia, but the saturation of the present and the future with the past, without which neither present nor future will come to be. For that reason, I feel that the past is subject to plunder, and have always said that it should be the arbiter of the conflict. The past is more ambiguous than the future. - Mahmoud Darwish

Remembering Mahmoud Darwish (Part 1 of ?)

Under: Art & Culture, Memories, Palestine, Personalities, Uncategorized, What I Love @ 2:14 pm on Friday, 08.15.08


This is part of a large photo of Mahmoud Darwish near his grave site on a hill next to Ramallah’s Cultural Palace - where he had his final poetry reading in June.

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Truth has two faces. We’ve listened to the Greek mythology, and at times we’ve heard the Trojan victim speak through the mouth of the Greek Euripides. As for me, I’m looking for the poet of Troy, because Troy didn’t tell its story. And I wonder, does a land that has great poets have the right to control a people that has no poets? And is the lack of poetry amongst a people enough reason to justify its defeat? Is poetry a sign, or is it an instrument of power? Can a people be strong without having its own poetry?

I was a child of a people that had not been recognized until then. And I wanted to speak in the name of the absentee, in the name of the Trojan poet. There’s more inspiration and humanity in defeat than there is in victory. If I belonged to the victor’s camp, I’d demonstrate my support for the victims.

Do you know why we Palestinians are famous? Because you are our enemy. The interest in us stems from the interest in the Jewish issue. The interest is in you, not in me. So we have the misfortune of having Israel as an enemy, because it enjoys unlimited support. And we have the good fortune of having Israel as our enemy, because the Jews are the center of attention. You’ve brought us defeat and renown.
Excerpt of Darwish’s conversation with an Israeli journalist from the 2004 film, Notre Musique, by French director Jean-Luc Godard.

To Life I say: Go slow, wait for me until the drunkenness dries in my glass
I have no role in what I was or who I will be
It is chance and chance has no name
I call the doctor 10 minutes before the death, 10 minutes are sufficient to live by chance.

Time has passed us,
Our fate is an exception to the rule
Here lie a murderer and the murdered, sleeping in one hole
And it remains for another poet to take this scenario to its end!
Excerpts from Darwish’s last work, The Dice Thrower

I come from there and I have memories
Born as mortals are, I have a mother
And a house with many windows,
I have brothers, friends,
And a prison cell with a cold window.
Mine is the wave, snatched by sea-gulls,
I have my own view,
And an extra blade of grass.
Mine is the moon at the far edge of the words,
And the bounty of birds,
And the immortal olive tree.
I walked this land before the swords
Turned its living body into a laden table.

I come from there. I render the sky unto her mother,
When the sky weeps for her mother.
And I weep to make myself known
To a returning cloud.
I learnt all the words worthy of the court of blood,
So that I could break the rule.
I learnt all the words and broke them up,
To make a single word: Homeland….
Mahmoud Darwish, I Come From There

Between the luminescence of words and the darkness of times …lived Mahmud Darwish.
Adonis

Mahmoud Darwish left no children to whom we can address our condolences. Instead, it is the Palestinian people as a whole who must receive our commiseration for the loss of their most vibrant voice at a time when so much else is being lost to them.
Raymond Deane

Goodbye

Under: Around The World, Art & Culture, Memories, Palestine, People & Places, Uncategorized @ 10:40 am on Wednesday, 08.13.08

Mahmoud Darwish's mother at his funeral in Ramallah

Thousands of Palestinians gather around the cortege carrying the coffin

Thousands of Palestinians gather around the convoy carrying the coffin of Darwish

Marcel Khalife places a white rose of Darwish's coffin

Marcel Khalife kisses the coffin of  Mahmoud Darwish

Palestinian women wave to the coffin of late Palestinian poet Mahmoud Darwish at Amman airport

Jordanian women waving goodbye to the plane that carried the coffin of late Palestinian poet Mahmoud Darwish at Amman airport

Palestinian honour guards carry the coffin of late Palestinian poet Mahmoud Darwish during his funeral

Palestinians mourn at the grave of Palestinian poet Mahmoud Darwish, who gave a voice to the Palestinians' longing for independence, during his funeral in the West Bank city of Ramallah,

Mahmoud Darwish is carried during his funeral in the West Bank city of Ramallah

waves to the coffin of late Palestinian poet Mahmoud Darwish at Amman airport

Your sleepiness is stronger than fear. A wilderness of your beauty dozes off, and a moon out of your shadows wakes to guard its trees.

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Our cups of coffee. Birds green trees
In the blue shade, the sun gambols from one wall
To another like a gazelle
The water in the clouds has the unlimited shape of what is left to us
Of the sky. And other things of suspended memories
Reveal that this morning is powerful and splendid,
And that we are the guests of eternity. ~Mahmoud Darwish
May your soul rest in peace.

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